20 (05182011)

20, officially.

Even if the sky is falling down?

So, I currently have some free time to write an actual blog, that of which I haven't done in....well lets just say its been way to long.

My god, where to start....so we moved into a house, we have a huge backyard for our puppie's, the house itself is that of questionable condition, but its the best we could do on our time frame/budget.

I guess I should rewind a bit to October 2010.

I was having this really weird feeling in my side, it worried me enough to walk through my ghetto-ass neighborhood at 1am to go to the hospital. I woke CJ up before I left, put the house phone by his head, and told him if I wasn't home in time to get him up for work that I would call until he wakes up. Long story short, he woke up to a trashed house, Nahla and Zim didn't take to kindly to my leaving... CJ didn't remember me telling him what was going on, and thought I was out doing drugs and such. Which at the time I hadn't done in months.

He broke-up with me, and told me that my job at cineplex didn't count, so when I got home from the hospital I cleaned up our place, and called around for jobs, one told me to come in right away. I got the job! and so I went home (still feeling like shit might I add) and waited to tell CJ that our problems were solved and its all good... but he didn't see things that way.

So basically I was a fucking mess. His mom told me to come spend the night with her to give CJ a break... which I did. However, it was the next day that put in motion the spun out situation I am currently in.

See, my best friend Serena, and CJ's best friend Donny recently broke-up at the time, and since Serena and CJ have the same last name we always refer to themn as "our Patterson's"...and I don't know why, but I figured if I went to Donny's, CJ would be a lot happier then if I went to my ex's. BUT Donny told me how he had recently come to aquire a large amount of money, and one thing led to another and we ended up getting high.

While high, Donny and I decided it would be a bad idea to tell CJ, as CJ was on his way over to also get high with Donny.

The next day CJ came home and we got back together, and everything went back to normal.

BUT! a week later CJ decided to get drunk with some people that lived in our building, and they got him in a rage about me or something... needless to say our apartment got trashed, and CJ ended up with the cops.

[INSERT BS THAT HAPPENED WITH JUSTIN AND SABLE AND TYLER HERE]

The week following was shaky. At the end of the week he took the xbox to Donny's "just to chill", and he ended up getting high... well, I ended up chilling with Ashley because I didn't want to be home by myself... and all of a sudden CJ calls me and break's up with me, it was pretty bad.

[INSERT CJ COMING HOME FOR FOOD AFTER OUR BREAK-UP HERE]

Yeah...that wasn't pretty.

That night I ended up at my ex-gf's. That night I met Ronda. That night I got high. Basically that night, I broke the fuck down.

I started seeing Ronda every day, and every day she'd smoke me up. As well as I had a small stash of my own.

UHM!

[INSERT CJ WAKING UP AT 2AM AND FINDING ME GETTING HIGH IN THE LIVING ROOM HERE]

We ended up getting back together at that point, because then he too got high. and well, basically we haven't stopped getting high. Its ridiculous.

and I've lost like 3 jobs in 2 months... :( blah.

I just do my best to stay positive, 'cause like, this is all happening for a reason...right?

anyways, until next time

<3 Love PG

05152011

WOW....talk about a capital O!

The 10th Day of the 5th Month and the 2011th Year

"when your balls, get calls...
B I N G O!"

lol well, haven't slept in days, totally in lala-land puddle jumper mode. Don't know
when I'll reset back to normality, however it better be soon because I'm supposed to be
landing a job in T-5.5 hours.

Love <3