May 16, 2015

Reverie: the cherry on top

I miss tickling your arms so fucking bad..... Fuck I would kill not to be living this nightmare...

This isn't real (fuck it is)

I remember a long time ago, when you told me you wanted to be my only, all you wanted was to hold me.


It's fucking impossible to wrap my head around how I'm now sitting here, lonely, wishing you'd hold me, wondering if you ever meant all the things you told me. 

I thought you'd never hurt me, wait, I suppose you didn't hurt me....

I never seen it coming, that you would completely fucking destroy ever fiber of my being, my universe, gone, just like that..... 

Never seen it coming, nope.

Glad to have played the subject of a sick joke, I hope you choke, 

AK 

Ivgvuvish - part of my broken head

Every time you looked in my eyes, was all just one big fucking lie. Everything you swore you'd never do, you went and did & double too. 


You said you'd never leave my side, but that was just another lie, maybe I'm just high, but I'm hypnotized by those lies.

Our Love you said would never die, has left me with no more tears to cry, or will to try.

I'm alone, wishing you'd phone, I never imagined silence could be so fucking loud.

I wanna gauge my eyes out, or beat the memory of you the fuck out of my head... Anything is better then this, even being dead.

Thanks Dev

May 15, 2015

Reverie: Pro Choice

Was this what you wanted? I'm dying to know, you swore this isn't the way it would go. 


Did you always know you would leave me alone? 

Right now I'm wishing that I never hung up on you the last time you phoned.

But would it have made a difference?

Only you would know.

All the time we shared together, were they real, or were you just playing the role? 

You broke every promise you said, and yet I sit and wait, hoping you'll change your mind, praying it's not too late....

You destroyed my faith, and you broke the Love I Loved the most, without even an explanation....

Do you know how you have broken my head? 

I don't even know if you care, or ever cared.... Why would you do this, please tell me....

Anyways, I love you always, even if you don't Love me