When I was a little girl watching The Little Mermaid, Sleeping Beauty, the princess and the goblins, etc, I knew I wanted that kind of Love when I grew up, only to find out when I grew up, that Love like that is almost only ever seen in Disney movies, Harlequin romance novels & Hallmark cards.
July 8, 2020
January 29, 2020
Genomelink
Hi, I'd like to shine some light at this cool new website I've stumbled upon called Genomelink.
With this site you can upload your raw dna files, and it will tell you all about your genetics. ....
It can tell you whether your afraid of heights, or if your hairy, or aggressive. It's pretty interesting.
Posted by Amanda Kelly at 9:41 AM 0 comments
January 6, 2019
Ernest Watson
Babies shouldn't die,
Soulmates should never have to seperate.
Unfortunately for me, I live in a world where babies die, and love fails.
I wouldn't wish the pain in my heart on my worst enemy.
It's a miracle that I'm sitting here writting this, but Of course that is just one more thing I should be grateful for that I take forgranted....
When he leaves me, waiting for him, I isolate myself, I don't return text messages or phone calls. I miss appointments...I would like to say I lose track of time but every single second drags out into minutes, hours, then days, then weeks, eventually months....
Its insanity. And it repeats itself flawlessly. See, while this is happening I am well aware of the consequences and situations that follow, however my mind cannot snap out of the anxiety of need you to hold me, and nothing else matters.
Then there I am, laying in your arms. My anxiety is cured, my heart is whole & everything is right again, but its like trying to hold on to sand as it helplessly slips through my fingers, because all the reactions to my actions have built up, and I know, that I'm not free, and I know soon again something will take my love away from me.
I can't stop loving Devin. I've tried literally everything. When he's gone, I do whatever I can to avoid having to be present in his absence.
When I'm in his arms, everything is perfect, and even though I know that the nightmare is soon to follow, I cant stop smiling, and those are the moments I hold on for.
As time goes on, I feel like I'm losing him, and by that I mean, he's too tired to fight & I understand, even though it hurts me.
I strongly believe that we are weaker apart, and that's why I'm asking for help to beat our demons.....pray for him & I....
I love you to Iraq & Back
Posted by Amanda Kelly at 7:13 PM 0 comments
October 10, 2018
19 letters
19 letters,
They belong to your name,
& the pain in my soul.
Devin Ernest Bouchard,
You changed my life
& nobody has ever been able to love me, the way you loved me.
Posted by Amanda Kelly at 10:33 PM 0 comments
August 19, 2017
The end of Him, the beginning of.........?
Good job, you finally did it.
Regardless the reason, I will never let you in again.
Welcome to Fuckoffs-Ville, population: you, ya goof.
You couldn't tell the truth to save your life,
And I don't got time for that shit.
Finally my life is going back to normal,
Now that you and your supersize baggage are out of my life I feel like I am free.
Free of the bullshit, the stress and to find someone who has a life.
#ciao2thebullshit
Posted by Amanda Kelly at 8:10 PM 0 comments
August 8, 2017
Epic 💓 break
All I wanted was to have you in my arms one more time....I craved it even.
Well I got what I wanted. 8 days of having the love I love the most.
I couldn't get over it. I thought I was dreaming.
I wasn't though.
And once again you told me, you were never leaving again. And I believed you.
Then you went to see your daughter,
And I lost you again.
I'm still trying to figure out if those 8 days were worth how I'm left feeling.
This place is ruined for me, it's full of memories of you now and they are everywhere.
I can't escape them.
I don't know why of all the people in the world you had to pick me.
I wish you never happened to me.
Inside I'm like so fucking broken,
But on the outside I'm trying to appear like I'm okay.
You know, this truly could be the beginning of the end of me.
Only time will tell.
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July 14, 2017
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