Zydrate Anatomy Lyrics

I can't feel nothing at all.....

Drug market, Sub-Market,
sometimes I wonder why I ever got in.
Blood market, Love market,
sometimes I wonder why they need me at all.

Zydrate comes in a little glass vial;
A little glass vial?
A little glass vial.
&& the little glass vial goes into the gun like a battery.
&& the zydrate gun goes somewhere against your anatomy.
&& when the gun goes off it sparks,
&& your ready for surgery.
SURGERY.

Graverobber, Graverobber
Some times I wonder why I even bother.
Graverobber, Graverobber
Sometimes I wonder why I need you at all.

&& Amber Sweet is addicted to the knife,
Addicted to the knife?
Addicted to the knife.
&& addicted to the knife she needs a little help with the agony.
&& a little help comes in a little glass vial;
In a gun pressed against her anatomy.
&& when the gun goes off, Miss Sweet is ready for surgery.
SURGERY.

Graverobber, Graverobber,
Sometimes I wonder why I need you at all.......

It's clean, It's clear, It's pure...
It's what?
It's rare
It takes you there
It what?
It takes you there
It takes you there.

A little jump, before the cut.
Why agonize, anesthetize.
I can't feel nothing at all.

'cause surgery
'cause surgery....?
'cause surgery......
Is what she needs....
Is what I need?
Its what I need.
To change inside.
To change inside?
To feel alive.

Mag's contract's got some might fine print.
Some might fine print.
&& that mighty fine print puts Mag in a mighty fine predicament.
If Mag up and splits, her eyes are forfeit
&& if Geneco and Rotti so will it,
then a repo man will come,
&& she'll pay for that surgery...surgery.

Surgery, Surgery.
I can't feel nothing at all.

Reverie -I don't know

Through-out my life I've dealt with many things, abandonment issue's, behavioral issue's, alcohol addiction, death, and I still live with some things I haven't dealt with such as my fear of being alone, my wanting to rarely leave the house, and the worst one yet, by far is Colton. For some reason or another, he wasnt meant to be here. He was too amazing to just have his life cut short like that. I know all this talk comes down to me just being selfish. I want him here. I want to hold him. I want my baby brother. I want I want I want. I wanted to go party instead of be with him. I wanted to run after other people instead of stay with him. I wanted to play on the computer when he was over. and now he's gone and I can do all those things.... ugh. and whats worse is that since he's died, its been a domino effect with everything... Hunter is in social services > my dad is broke > Leah is back to her old ways > the girl and I have to come up with 1049 dollars by Friday or we face a 24hr eviction..... and we still owe $1500 to get Colton's ashes out.