Twas the night after Halloween (2014)

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Reverie: Devinstated

And once again, I am reminded of the fact that I am in Love with you,

the amount of patients I have acquired are astronomical, 

I may not enjoy it,

but I will always be at your side through whatever it is you feel we need to go through,

because its the right thing to do, 

I Love You, endlessly,

[more then my own life]

AK

One Three One (am)

I can't sleep, and my ears could hear a pin drop in China (metaphorically speaking of course) , and my Hello Kitty watch is tik-tik-tok-ing away, not letting me forget how just because my world has been "devinstated", the rest of the Universe has been continuing to keep on keeping on, as it should. 

I think I need to learn how to live with the person I avoid worse then the police....me.

Yeah, I need to find a happy medium within myself, before I lose whats left of my head.

On that note, Good Night, or ..Day =)

AK

Pain has a Flavor

This particular pain, tastes like bologna from the Sobey's deli, and it feels like pins and needles, when your foot goes numb, and you have no control, and it doesn't physically hurt, but it immobilizes you.

Everything in regards to the person of which I relate my flavor of pain, is other worldly, and there is not another word in any language that I could say that would properly justify the depth of feelings I have, and have felt towards him. In fact, I feel like I'm losing my head.

I happen to be a master of turning wonderful things into disasters, luckily for me, there's someone with a greater power that see's past my disaster, he see's me for who I am, and he Loves me.

Unconditionally,

I never dreamed it my wildest dreams, that those fairy tale stories about Prince Charming would happen to me, and its not easy to believe, because sometimes, I'm not a nice person, I don't know why, but I got Heaven at my finger tips in his arms, and I chose to let all these worthless idols of this world stray me from his Love,

I'm a Bad Panda, and a tired one too, Good Night

xo

1/4 after 3 o'clock am

It goes like this:

My love peaced out with my heart, me = similar to zombie or living dead girl by still breathing without a goddamn heart (wtf?!??), city too small for you to be so close but away from me, so AK pulled up her big girl panties and pulled own peace out to Ontario....and got stuck in Ignace (don't ask)...which was all for nothing because after four long months, my love comes back out of thin air and I come back to this filthy city to reunite with my long lost heart... Only to turn 23, and goto jail for 28 lovely days. When I got out life wa golden, Micky & Mallory, and then we peaced out but that was short lived due to social networking b/s and on 08/21 we went back to jail, and I am free but my hearts a hostage to the remand..... Oh and I wrote this to him, 

3:03, and I can't sleep, not that I want to. I'm thinking about you, us, and my lack of trust. I'm scared, I'm pretty sure I've never been more afraid in my life.... I've never needed something to work so bad in my life... I wish just crossing my fingers would ensure the outcome I desire, too bad I'm sitting with reality, she's a bitch, I'll dance circles 'round her, in our honour. I miss you, three very simple words similar to the three other words that just don't justify the depth in meaning, and of what I feel for you. Your a blessing in disguise I'm sure, here's hoping what you feel for me is pure. End.

keep on keeping on

Hello there, 

Well, its been a good, long, flail...uh, I mean, while....hehe! Since I've had a moment to really write something meaningful.

I have fallen madly inlove, and I know maybe I wrote about being in love before, and I had no idea how terribly wrong I was. 

I probably will never be able to understand the depths of this love, but oh boy, does it ever feel amazing, perfect & all the above.

Here's the best part, its very difficult to be together, but, we do it, and that's the easy part. Its easy for us to work at being together. Its worth it all in every way.

I just had to say, how lucky I am to be inlove with him....

Always & Never, 
AK